@Travis-Butler said in The Apothecary Diaries Vol. 15 Discussion!:
But if you argue that her emotions are changing over time, the logical corollary is that the most recent description of her emotions is the most accurate. Because they are changing.
That is why I put heavy emphasis on LN 13. Because it's not only the most thorough examination of her relationship with Jinshi, it's also the most recent, and therefore the most current take on how she feels about him.
It's a thorough examination of her relationship, but not through her eyes, that's the catch. We have not seen her emotions clearly in LN 13. It is not from her point of view. Maomao says things, and often can feel a different way. She even contradicts herself in her own thoughts sometimes. Based on how she was raised, of course she would say and convince herself to handle the situation explicitly as "a courtesan getting ready to serve an important customer." It protects her emotionally to treat it that way. She has always tried to only view things logically. I still don't see any of this as evidence one way or the other. Whereas, I would argue the earlier examples still weigh just as much if not more because we are seeing it explicitly from Maomao's point of view.
@Travis-Butler said in The Apothecary Diaries Vol. 15 Discussion!:
But people are claiming this is romantic love, and that's more than just caring. To me, romantic love means you do romantic things because they bring you pleasure and make you happy. And I'm still not seeing where Maomao feels that way about getting together with Jinshi.
But why is it not possible that doing romantic things for Jinshi does make her happy? Or even simpler, having Jinshi in her life makes her happy? Maybe not pleasure in a physical sense, can't speak for that, but I think she feels happy doing acts of service for the people she loves. Not because she feels obligated to. This is also my subjective opinion.
@Travis-Butler said in The Apothecary Diaries Vol. 15 Discussion!:
I think Maomao feels like she's in a web of duty and obligations. She feels it's expected of her by just about everyone around her. She feels like she can't say 'no', whatever Ah-Duo says. She may even be willing to do it because she knows Jinshi wants it very badly and she does care about him. But she'd be doing it for him - not because it's something she wants for herself. And if she's doing it for him, that makes it a duty, not a pleasure.
But this first part is still your subjective understanding is it not? We don't have inner monologue saying, she has to do this because everybody expects it of her. Or she can't let Jinshi down. Of her feeling outside pressures to do this. She has so many cards she can pull on if she really wanted to get out of this romantic relationship part, to even just find a different way that wouldn't chain her to Jinshi, but still allow her to fulfill her platonic "duty" to him. She has pull with people like Gyokuyou and more importantly Lakan. She didn't even give Ah Duo the chance to explain what she was offering. Don't you think if she only felt this way out of obligation she would at least hear out Ah Duo's proposal? Even if she would turn it down all the same.
@Travis-Butler said in The Apothecary Diaries Vol. 15 Discussion!:
Maybe that's why I'm arguing about it so strongly. Because I feel like, if all of the external pressures and entanglements were stripped away, this is not something she wants for herself.
And I think I'm arguing so strongly because I feel like while initially for a LN 1 Maomao, this would never be something she wanted for herself, she has grown a lot, and opened up emotionally to Jinshi and other. She considers these relationships as worth making sacrifices for, not forced my outside factors. The relationships make her happy.
Honestly, I'm also just totally surprised after the Sound Sleep chapter in LN 12 how people think she has no romantic attachment to Jinshi at all. That's when Maomao is tired and much less guarded, and as honest as she has been so far, or since in my opinion. I can not think of any other interpretation of that scene besides romantic.